Thiruvvaimozhi 4.4- My girl is going CRAZEE after Sriman NarayaNan!
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• March 24, 1998
SRI: Dearest Sisters and Brothers, NammAzhwAr enjoyed narrating EmperumaanÂ’s love towards Him in his last decad. Emperumaan thought, this way, if it goes on increasing, the love for the Lord may even spoil his health and hence, decided to stay out of AzhwArÂ’s scene for some time. Immediately our AzhwAr again, has started suffering from pangs of separation and the Viragha thaapam. In this decad of Thiruvaaimozhi 4.4, he again enters into the Piraatti role and languishes heavily. Whatever he sees, in all things, he connects to Emperumaan. He sees everything as Him and Him only and suffers heavily longing for Him. And Parangusa NayakiÂ’s mother suffers looking at her daughterÂ’s pains of separation. 1. She, my girl, is sitting on the sands and is taking the sands from the ground in her handful- claiming those sands were all dropped from His Feet, when He took TrivikaramAvathAram. Due to Viragha thaapam, she feels as if she is touching His Feet by touching the sands on the earth. She look at the sky and pays obeisance to it. She tries to say that there His Parama Padham exists in the sky but unable to even utter any words due to her exertion of separation. She only shows with her finger. After showing the sky, she is so much remorse with tears, crying heavily whether she will totally lose her enjoyment of seeing His Beautiful form. She looks at the Blue sky and shouts "kadal VaNNA!" (The one of Blue hued colour of the sea!). The One who made my daughter so much crazy- How will I make Him come here and How will she recover at all!. 2. I am not able to understand my daughterÂ’s actions. The so much beautiful daughter of mine is even unable to utter NarayaNA and wiping her continuos outpouring of tears from her big, dark eyes. Finally she manages to say amidst her sobs "narayaNA!" and exerts herself. She is standing like an orphan in front of me (her mother). She is calling Emperumaan as kadal VaNNan and languishes thinking of His dark, blue hued Beautiful colour. Her bangles automatically fall off her hands (due to her thinning down from languishing). She imagines the sea wavesÂ’ noises and says that is the ocean where NarayaNA is lying down. When the sun dawns in the morning, she gets so much excited and shouts Hey! There is Emperumaan SridharanÂ’s Beautiful Thirumugha maNdalam (face). I simply do not know what to do with her. 3. Everyone (including the kid, if cautioned) knows that the fire can not be touched and will burn the body. My crazy, mad girl is almost touching the fire and says" AchuthA!" But nothing happens to her body. (SubrahmaNya Bharathi says " TheekuL viralai vaitthaal, NandalaalA! Unnai theeNdum inbham thOnrudhaiyA NandalaalA- When I put my finger inside the fire, it gives me a feeling of touching You, NandalaalA- he is also a Great poet). She hugs the cool chill breeze and says "My dear GovindhA!". Her body is smelling with such Great Fragrance like ParimaLam and ThuLasi leaves. Even when she laments for Emperumaan Sriman NarayaNan she smells so much divine; But, the MahApaapi, I am, suffering and unable to solve her pangs of pains. Her sufferings are countless; Her crazy actions are so many. I have lost count. 4. My daughter, when she looks at the Full Moon, she gets so excited and shouts "NarayaNA!- The Most shining Lord of mine!". When she looks at the Big mountain, she calls the mountain "NedumAlE!, Please come to me!". When it rains she yells "hey! NarayaNan has come" and jumps with joy. My sweet, lovely Beautiful daughter- why does He trouble her like this? What can I do?. 5. When she hugs the healthy cute calves, she is so happy and tells these calves were the ones taken care by KaNNan. My God! She literally touches the running snake and says that is AdhsEshan and His bed. (It will bite, kaNNE!- how to explain her, Lord!). I do not know what all she is going to do and how am I take full care of her safety. He has deceived her and allured her for being so much crazy after Him- Maayavan is He. Look, How does she dance so vigorously longing for NarayanA! 6. When she sees the street dancers, she runs behind them as says "Govindhan is dancing". When she listens to the flute anywhere, she gets into ecstasy and says "ahA! Kannan is playing flute!" and she gets into the trance. When she someone carrying butter, she gets excited and says this veNNai (butter) was eaten by my KaNNan and grabs it. Her madness after KaNNan is beyond narration and is not proper to tell in public too. 7. When she is totally maddened by His thought, she tells all these worlds were created by KrishNan only. When she sees someone with even vubhUthi marks on their faces, vertically (Oordhva PuNdram) she calls them as BhAgawathAs of Sriman NarayaNA and runs behind them. When she looks at fragrant thuLasi leaves, she gets into ecstasy. She, (even when she is clear and when she is NOT clear in her words as well ) always keeps talking about EmperumaanÂ’s kalYANa guNAs. 8. When she hears or sees the good kings without any blemishes, she says "I have seen the Sriya: Pathi Sriman NarayaNan". When she looks at the beautiful flowers, she yells, it is due to His FeetÂ’s divine touch as Trivikraman. Wherever she sees any temple or any statue, she calls all of them as Emperumaan Kadal VaNNanÂ’s temples. She also shouts adamantly that the idol is her Lord SarvEshwaran NarayNan only. When she is normal and is conscious of the surroundings and when she is in a trance and unclear as well, she longs only for Sri KrishNanÂ’s Lotus Feet alone. (there is also an interesting ithIhyam about this mistaken identity of kings as Sriman NarayaNan by Srimad NathamunigaL- Once when he saw chOlA king stepping on the head of his servant and climbed on his elephant, Srimad Nathamuni went into ecstasy and prostrated thinking that he is Sriman NarayaNan who stepped on BrahmAÂ’s head and boarded GarudA. Also on another occasion, when he saw a king with his queen, minister, and the servant, he went behind them calling them as PerumAL. SitAPiraatti, Ilaya PerumAL and AnjanEYA. What an anubhavam! They are BhAgawathAs; they are great devotees!) 9. When may daughter sees the sannyaasis, she gets so excited and says "Emperumaan is here and He is the One who ate everything and the entire world!". When she looks at the dark, rainy clouds, she shouts "KaNNA! Please come fast" and tries to fly to the clouds and raise her hands like feathers. She has literally gone crazee! She runs behind the group of cows telling that KaNNan will definitely be there. Oh Lord, what have You done to my girl for getting so mad after You! She is crying heavily! (There is yet another story about these dark clouds: At Chozha dEsam during RajEndra Chozhan perios, there was one Thiruvaayk kulatthAzhwAr (an ardent bhakthA of Sriman NarayaNA) who went to see the growth of his paddy fields during the rainy season., saw the dark rainy clouds and went into ecstasy thinking of EmperumaanÂ’s Neela mEgha shyAmaLanÂ’s colour and fainted. Someone who passec by lifted him in his arms and carried him to his home and scolded his people for allowing such an ardent bhakthA of NarayaNA to go out during the rainy season (may be that happens to him often!)) 10. My beautiful darling daughter has become so mad after Him and faints often thinking of Him always; She looks at everywhere without any clarity like mad person. She always sweats heavily! She is full of tears in her eyes and always sobs continuously. She sighs deeply and exerts herself calling "KaNNA! Please come to me fast!". Alas! What can I do now? I am not able to bear looking at my darling in this state. What mahA Paapam (great sin) have I committed for seeing all these sufferings of my darling daughter! (Similar to these feelings of dearest mother of Parangusa Nayaki, Sri Bhagavadh Ramanujar uttered the same words when he saw KooratthAzhwAnÂ’s face with blinded eyes (due to ChoLA king who had ordered to pluck the eyes of KooratthAzhwAn and Periyanambhi and PeriyanambiÂ’s eyes were pierced and KUrEsar plucked his eyes by himself): "What Paapams have I committed for seeing KooratthAzhwAnÂ’s blinded eyes!" - this is actually a comparison of Nampillai.) 11. Sri SadagOpar sang 1000 pAsurams about his bhakthi for KaNNapiraan who removes all (irremovable) sins of even the highest order. Out of those 1000, readers of these 10 pAsurams, who consider them as the means to get rid of their sins and karmAs will definitely get their sins ridden of; They will ALSO reach Parama Padham, Sri Vaikuntam and stay there and obtain all praises from everybody here and Srivaikuntam as well. Graet set of pAsurams! What an outpour from AzhwAr! Enna MahAnubhavam! AzhwAr thiruvadigaLE saraNam Ram Ram With Best Regards NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com
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