Thiruvaaymozhi 8.1- Please make me serve You eternally, Lord!
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• July 14, 1998
SrI: Dearest Sisters and Brothers, Still AzhwAr's desire to enjoy performing kaimkaryam has not materialised. However he has more faith now on Emperumaan and describes His state of being the saviour of His devotees always and of our eternal connection with the Lord. Thus, AzhwAr does not have any semblance of doubt if at all He will come to save him. 1. BhagawaanE! Why should I lament and worry when You are with Your BhUmi Piraatti and Periya Piraatti? (means they are there to recommend my case to You). Also, to carry out Your Divine commands and orders, there are NityasUris readily available at Your Lotus Feet. You, the ruler of all three worlds- show Yourself in the exact form (whatever form) Your devotees desire and worship You and bless them. You have simply captured me with Your lovely Most Beautiful Red Lotus Eyes and Your round, enchanting Coral lipped mouth and are terribly disturbing me! My uyirE! (life!), Oh My Dearest Emerald! My Nectarine beauty! My Father! The One who churned the Milky Ocean! Please bless me to have Your Darshan with my (physical) eyes. (kamalak kaNNanadhu Or pavaLavaay maNiyE! AaviyE! AmudhE! Alaikadal kadaintha appanE!-) 2. I have been suffering heavily and am remorse with tears very often thinking of You and Your mercy that You will bless me, (the Greatest sinner) have Your darshan. I long to reach You in different ways and in various means, and with that craving, I keep on uttering Your names very many times and suffer terribly. Is this Your mercy on me, Lord? KaNNA! You are like the Sweet fruit ("kaRpaka kani") to adiyEn (me.), Your eternal servant! You are like the Sweet nectar to bhAgawthAs! (those who are desirous of seeing You). Oh Masculine EmperumaanE! The One who brought back the Mother Earth and saved the same! Please bless me to have Your darshan. 3. KannA! The Dearest darling child of NandhagOpan! You gave yasOdhA unbounded limitless joy. You were like the Lion among the cowherd (aayar kulam). Such a Greatest Lord only is my Dearest Lord. You tore open the body of HiranYan (the one who craved for fights with others) into two pieces with Your sharp nails and killed that asuran. That day You appeared so spontaneously and now You have NOT yet appeared to save me! Should You not come in some form that suits for me? If You do not come to me now and save me from these troubles and dangers, how will Your bhAgawathAs (who have Your guNAs only as their food for their lives) believe You? 4. You take the form of the most desired shape/body (ThirumEni) in which Your bhakthAs (adiyaargaL) (ones who are Yours at all times) would long to see You always. You take mercy on such BhagawathAs, who are simply engrossed in their enormous bhakti (devotion) towards You and in order to involve them and enchant them further, you perform various mischievous deeds as a Great Maayavan. Like that- You are at the disposal of BhagawathALs and I possess that jnAnam (knowledge) of Your sowlabhyam. Still, due to my karmic disease, I get into little doubt whether it is true or not. How can I talk about Your Great acts of performing the KurukshEthra yuddham and destroying the vast Kaurava armies? You are the limitless and unbounded nectar (amudham) to dEvAs, while You are such a poison for asurAs (asurAs, who are born and/or asurAs, who become one, by their nature). Such Greatest Lord, -You are and the One who is my Life itself. (amarar tham amudhE! Asurar tham nanjE! ennudai aaruyirEyO!) 5. EmperumaanE! When You are there as the life (jIvan) for me (who is the "sarIram" (body) for You), what can I do to reach You and How? (There is nothing for me to do or to offer to You- Everything is Yours including myself). This vast-huge Earth- You created the same- and In order to protect You brought it back during Your Varaaha avataaar and You retained it in Your stomach and brought it out during PraLayam (Cosmic cycle). You are the One as Trivikraman, who measured the whole universe in Your two steps! You are the Grandest Chief who created the huge Milky Ocean and lied down on it! (and have "aRithuyil"). You are the one who churned the same Milk Ocean! (for giving nectar to dEvAs). You are the One who built the bridge across the sea (during Rama avataar!). You are the chieftain, SarvEshwaran of dEvAs, (who themselves are greater than human beings in their wealth and nature). You are the life (jIvan) of these worlds- supporter of them- the Director of them- and have them as Your body (SarIram). (With such innumerable strings of greatness in Your nature and guNAS), How can I ever try to attempt even to see You? You out of Your mercy on me and out of Your grace should show Yourself to me. 6. Oh My Dearest Ruler! When the seven worlds are under Your command, is it possible to reach You with my own efforts? In this world, the demi Gods whom You have appointed are all under Your direction and order. The pUjA performed to these demi Gods and the acts they perform (like creation, destruction etc..) are all actually delegated to them by You. (They are all under Your control.) The vast (outside the universe) tatvAs like "mahat" (The Cause) are all under Your ruling. The "sookshuma" tatvA (the most minutest state of chit ) are also under Your order. The muktha jIvAthmAs (who are not visible by naked eyes) are all under Your command. When such is the case about Your Power, Greatness, HOW WILL I REACH YOU BY MYSELF? 7. Oh KaNNA! The One who hugged the shoulders of Nappinnai Piraatti and married her! Everything and all objects are under Your control and direction. The Past, the present and the future - the objects that live in these trikaalams (three times) are all under Your ruling. When such is the case, that object- (which is far away), this object (which is the nearest one) and the in between one are all created to do good to You (as a part of Your leelA). Even though I possess the knowledge of such a tatvam (i.e: He has All (except Him) in Him as ones belonging to Him as His sarIram), due to my incorrigible enormous sins that I had committed in the past, I still have a little "samsayam" (suspicion) on this. You are so sweet like the milk that has just been milked (from the cow); so tasty like the Ghee in that milk. You are like the sweetest nectar of ThiruppaaRkadal! You are the experience of that joy /bliss/ happiness/ pEraanandham that one derives from tasting that tasty amudham (nectar)! (You are the tasty "akkaara adisil") Since You are so tasty and sweet, (which is beyond one's comprehension and perception), I get such a suspicion? (Please read the words in Tamil for better taste of AzhwAr's "akkaara adisil"- kaRandha paal neyyE! Neyyin insuviayE! KadalinuL amudhamE! Amudhil piRandha insuvaiyE! Suvaiyadhu payanE! Pinnai thOL maNandha pErAyA!" What a Thamizh! - The ghee from akkaara adisil is flowing down the wrist dripping from the elbow -"mooda ney peydhu muzhanghai vazhivaara") 8. Oh Chief (of Cowherd men)! The One who united with Nappinnai Piraatti! You have captured me (the Great sinner who has not got You with me) with Your Great Most auspicious kalyANa guNAs and made me suffer terribly languishing for You. You are like a Yaman to the cruel asurAs! You have the GarudA (by whose mere glance can kill its enemies) as Your flag! You have the AdhisEshan (1000 headed) as Your bed! You are there having Yogha nithra at ThiruppaaRkadal, EAGERLY AWAITING the call of Your devotees! Even after having my mind, my words, and even myself under Your ruling, I still do not know HOW TO PAY obeisance to You. Since, everything is under Your ruling and direction, there is nothing that I need to do or act. Hence, You should only save me. 9. (This pAsuram is quite deep in its meanings and content! Also NampiLLai's eedu vyAkhyaanam beautifully explains it and is self explanatory, which I have detailed below: Perhaps, learned Sisters and Brothers can add value to my blathering on this rich deep, pAsuram!) BhagawaanE! (Oh Lord!) Since You are there in everything and everything is in You, I AM ALSO IN YOU. YOU ARE ALSO IN ME. To tell further, You are even the cruel hell. Hence, whether I go to Parama Padham or I proceed to hell (i.e. birth in this world again), though they are one and the same (because they are all part of You only), I am still scarred of the hell (further births!). The reason is: After having clearly realised and experienced being Your servant, why should I reach the hell? Oh parama Padha nAthanE! Please bless me by showing Your Lotus Feet! (NampiLLai's vyAkhyAnam: I am Your sEshan- and am in You as an ornament / a part belonging to You. There is no doubt about it. My samsaaric ills (which are like the most cruel hell to me) are also Your sEshathvam only. Hence, when I and my enemy (my samsaaric ills) both are under Your control and are Your sEshathvam- How does it matter whether I go to Parama Padham or back to samsaara saagaram? It is essential for a sEshan to please and act per directions of sEshI. (Slave to do as per Master's actions only!). Even then- if I get back to this Samsaara saagaram- I am scared that I WILL FORGET THIS (LITTLE) KNOWLEDGE that I possess about Your Seshathvam and Your Sarvarakshathvam. Hence, YOU PLEASE bless me to call me and involve me in Your Nitya vibhUthI (Parama Padham) to perform eternal kaimkaryam to You (in order to grant me eternal limitless unbounded blissful happiness). Please show mercy on me and show Your Lotus Feet to me, Lord!- What an explanation by NampiLLai!) 10. Oh My Father! You are the JyOthiswarUpI! You have thousands of shoulders! Your Heads (Thirumudi) are also thousands! Like the bunch of fresh, lovely, Beautiful flowers- the eyes are thousands! You have thousands of Feet! Your Divya thirunaamams (names) are thousand; Such Greatest Emperumaan You are! You have blessed me and elevated me higher and higher by showing Your Lotus Feet! (The Lord has actually shown His Lotus Feet to our AzhwAr!). You have captured me, enslaved me and You have shown Your Lotus Feet- What and How can I repay You, My Dearest Lord! (Dearest Sisters and Brothers, See the next statement- Imagine AzhwAr's ecstasy in his attempt to repay back and his enjoyment of surrendering to the Lord!) I will hug the shoulders of my "uyir" -life- (jIvan) and surrender my AthmA to give "it" to You as the price for what You have done to me. (Read again! AzhwAr has personified his jIvan and hugs it by its shoulders to jointly surrender his AthmA to the Lord!). My uyir jIvan DOES NOT BELONG and hence, is NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE. I AM PLACING IT AT YOUR FEET AND IT IS ONLY FOR YOU, MY LORD! (NampiLLai replies to the question of how one can give the AthmA as the price for What Emperumaan has done when it is actually His. The reason is : AzhwAr is so overwhelmed in joy and is so excited that he talks in such state of tremendous absolute bliss.) 11. Paramapadham, This world,- Emperumaan is the Chief of them; He is the Father of Sivan, Brahman, the Sages, dEvas, and all others. He is the SarvEshwaran. He alone is the Unparalleled, unmatched, peerless, "than oppAril appan- Oppiliappan" Chief. About such Greatest Emperumaan- Sri SadgOpar of Thirukkurugoor has sung and composed most dearly and devotedly 1000 pAsurams. Out of them, these ten have been sung with garlands of words. Oh Servants (of Emperumaan!) please read them and GET SAVED! You will definitely get saved! NammAzhwAr ThiruvadigaLE saraNam Ram Ram With Best Regards NarayaNa dAsan madhavakkannan ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com
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