Challenge 3.09. "FROM TREPIDATION TO INTREPIDITY!"

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• October 19, 1999


SwAmi VEdAnta DEsika's "NaichyAnusanthAnam" and 
"SAtvika AhamkAram "
(As gleaned from his StOtras.) - 
Part 3 - SWAMI CHALLENGES!
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Dear Bhagavatas
Kindly refer to "Part 3 - SWAMI CHALLENGES! An Introductory Note" - posted on 
10th October 99. I am leaving out this to avoid repetition You may read that 
to appreciate this posting in the proper perspective. 
Dasoham
Anbil Ramaswamy
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Challenge 3.09. "FROM TREPIDATION TO INTREPIDITY!"
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jAnan anAdhi vihithAn aparAdha varghAn
swAmin bhayAth kimapi vakthum aham na sakthah: /
avyAja vatsala thathApi nirankusam mAm
vAtsalyamEva bhavathO mukharee karOthi //
(Sri VaradarAja PanchAsat SlOkam 3)

Meaning
"Oh! VaradarAja!
I now realize (jAnan) that due to my enormous sins committed from 
beginningless time (anAdhi vihithAn aparAdha varghAn), I stand as a great 
offender. I am scared with trepidation (bhayAth) to face you even for 
extolling you with a word or two (kimapi vakthum)

But, how come, I have taken bold to face you now? 
Where does my courage come from? 

Your love for Jeevas is impulsive, natural and not dependent on merits 
('nirhEthuka' and 'avyAja vatsala') which help you to ignore faults of those 
who surrender at your feet. 

It is this natural disposition of your compassion that has bestowed 
intrepidity on me who is otherwise incorrigible (nirankusam mAm) and made me 
compose a few words"

Comment:
In GOdha Sthuthi, SwAmi said that his silence was shattered by GOdha's guNAs. 
Here, he says that it is Lord's natural unconditional parental affection that 
had emboldened him to commence this StOtra.
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(To Continue) Challenge 3.10. "IF YOU ARE REALLY VARADA, PROVE IT NOW!"
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